Friday, November 11, 2005

wrong turn?

Have you ever felt like you not supposed to be "here" at that point in time? By here, I mean everything: your location, the events that led up to you being where you are, the circumstances that you're in. It is as though you took a wrong turn somewhere and didn't realize that mistake until many years and many personal interactions later.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

divorcing after 25 years

I come to realize, perhaps too late, that there is a fine line between being a gentleman and being a doormat. Unfortunately, this mistake is costing me, not just financially, but emtionally and physically and spiritually. So what happens when you tried to correct this mistake? What happens when a guy puts an end to the doormat behavior of catering to his wife's every demand? I had hoped that she would grow up with me so that we could grow old together. Instead, I began to see her for who she truly was. I began to understand what is was that my friends and family had been trying to tell me all these years. But, like an addict, the healing could begin until I admitted to my shortcomings. And then realized that changes had to be done if I wanted to live.

At first, she laughed when I told her that I was planning to divorce her. Then her mood changed as the seriousness of the idea seeped into her thoughts. Her ultimate action? Well, three years last month, my wife of twenty five years filed for divorce. Yet, after three years, she and her lawyer have caused delay after delay while I’ve made offer after offer to buy her out and ransom my life back.

Hopefully, December 6th is the final day when we will appear before a judge and he will decree an end to her silliness.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

In the bloginning ...

Here's a stupid statement, "A lot has been going on in my life."  At what point, has there not been many conflicts simultaneously demanding my attention for resolution? So let's just say, I hope to resolve a couple of major issues in the next few months. And, hopefully through therapeutic exercise of writing my blog, I can keep myself alive a little while longer.   Only time will tell ….